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BOREDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SO...
BORED
I have nothing to do. I was just talking to Peter on aim. He showed me a video of a guy who his mom took away his wow account. FUNNIEST thing in the world hehe. I've seen it before. It's so funny. haha. But yeah I wanted to do a video chat on aim but I don't know why but for some reason it just doesn't work and I keep getting frustrated like I updated everything but yet it just won't work and I still don't know why! It's really pissing me off. I just wish I knew why it doesn't work. I want it to work! GAH! I was supposed to watch him play cod cause I miss watching him and he deleted his dell web chat. So I tried aim and it just doesn't work and I don't know why. it's frustrating. I wish I knew what to do. ugh. Well I gotta go. I'm going for practice at the rec. to work on throwing the frisbee. I gotta change and head over. Bye bye for now.
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10:40PM
K! Back from practice and tired! We worked on throwing and I think my flick is getting a lot better. I'm so excited that I can throw like that. Only bad part now is that i have this tiny little bruise on my hand right underneath my pinky. It kinda hurts. Haha like right now cause my hand is resting on the computer haha. It's weird. I got it from catching the frisbee wrong. Oh wow I just looked at my hand. I have two bruises. OW!. and the one underneath my pinky, hurts! Haha. But yeah. it was fun. and everyone worked on their throws. And oh my god! I was talking to Chris about the last tournament that apparently Lamar wanted a shut out against the B-team. Like what the fuck!?!? Like it's the fucking B-team you shouldn't want your other team to just completely fail against the A-team. They're such babies. Like what the hell. Like he also said we're not serious about play. Yeah we're serious but we're not serious about if we lose or win. Like it's not a huge deal. we're there to have fun and better our skills. Like Lamar is starting to piss me off. And he's like making Chris uncomfortable apparently like the way that lamar is. Ugh. People suck ass sometimes. And like now I have gone to practice since last week on tuesday. And Lamar will probably point that out. I have studying to do. He can fucking kiss my ass. I'm not afraid to punch him in the fucking face if I have to. No one messes with me.

SO YEAH.....
Umm...I'm so excited for tomorrow! I get to go over Peters and hang out with him . LOVE. What a lovely thing. hehe. I can't wait to see him. hehe.

OH!
I got the pads today
haha
I went to the dollar general and gots some. It's always infinity. It's awesome. haha
Holding 10x it's weight. haha. AMAZING! haha
Sorry figured I would mention it. haha.
~SO~

I thinks that's it for the night. I can't think of anything to write about....hmmm...That's it I think
haha.
NIGHT NIGHT

I LOVE YOU

 
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"I know it hurts but everything will be ok!"
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~I dedicate this entry to my friends Leandra and Becky who are most likely upset at this point and need a friend to talk to~
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Everything nowadays within my friends has been going so aray lately. Like why are all the men in our lives going nutso? Like they want us and they don't. Like pick one?! Pretty sure it's not that hard.

But yeah my friend's are dealing with some hard times right now and I've already gone through it and it does hurt more than anything in the world. It hurts to the point that you just want to fall over and not even move. As if the world has just stopped. You want everything to go back to the way it used to be. But yet it just seems like nothing is changing that it will never ever get better. That that gut feeling you have that everything will get better but it feels that it doesn't?

Well it's not true. Things do get better. All your heart wants is time. And the other needs is space and time to think things and even if you think everything is ok right now, it maybe in reality that things are not alright and you also need to work on things. Ever think of it that way? That maybe you need to work on yourself to make things better for the both of you?  That it may not be him? I learned that the hard way. That it wasn't just only him. I had problems too. Just do what I do and clear your mind of everything and think of the problems, what went wrong. Can't think of anything? Keep clearing your mind. I did it. Just clear your mind of everything.

Yes talking to people does help sometimes but (yes this may sound weird) have you ever talked it through with yourself?

Have you ever just went outside and laid out on the grass and stared at the sky and just thought things through? Thinking of the things around you, focusing on one thing and trying to calm yourself and figuring out what had gone wrong?

Now those who have gone through a mutual break up. This is slightly different and somewhat the same. I've gone through it just recently, but we ended up getting back together. We both had issues to deal with and somehow fixed them. But obviously if you both agree it is the best for the both of you at the moment then maybe it is the right decision. Both people should be happy in a relationship and shouldn't be depressed. And who knows...Maybe you'll meet again in the future...and everything will be ok. There is also when the guy CHEATS. Seriously? Is it necessary for them to do that in the fucking first place?! Like do they even deserve the person they're with if they're cheating on them? NO! They deserve SHIT! Yeah you know the stuff that comes out of your ass? Yeah that stuff. No one needs someone that's hurting them. FUCK THEM!. And no doing it back to the cause that's stupid too. Ok I'm gonna say once no sex and it was an "accident"?. Ok he better get his act together. Happens AGAIN what the fuck is wrong with him. 3rd time?!?!?!? He's A FUCKING RETARD and needs to realize what he may lose in the process.

Now the other when you get dumped.
HURTS LIKE A BITCH
Now what not to do. ANNOY the hell out of him.
Now leandra if you read this don't get mad I'm just trying to help.
Don't go sending him messages every 10 minutes telling him how much he means to you. Don't go emailing him how much you miss him or how much you love him, don't go trying to make him jealous because that's just stupid. yes at times that may work, but he could also be the guy that sees that and think you've moved on or that you're a whore for moving on so quickly after the break up. Yes I know he means the world to you and he should fucking know by now you feel or else he's a FUCKING IDIOT. What he needs is space at the moment. And if he truely loves you he'll come back to you speaking the words you wanted to say to him. 

Bad news
if he doesn't come back
It's ok.
Everything will be ok.
Treat this experience as a good thing. That he taught you how to love someone. Learning what to be IN LOVE means.
Trust me everything will be ok. And if he truely doesn't come back then your one true love is out there and I bet he's looking for you. You never know he could the one sitting next to you in one of your classes. Or maybe the guy you met at a party (not the drunk basterd falling all over the place of course) or maybe a guy you met at the store or someone you met through a friend.

Everything will be ok.
Just give it time.
Occupy yourself with something else.
I played Ultimate Frisbee.
It seemed to work.

Love is a complicated thing.
Always has and always will be, it will never get any easier.
But just believe in your heart. And everything will be ok.

Oh and just remember......

I'll always love you
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